10/15/03
It was on this day that my mom said the following words to me…
“It’s a long road to growing up.”

07/23/07

My mom and I struggled through most of my life to find a common ground. It turned out that it was near the end of her life when we managed to find a comfortable place together. We both had a lot of growing up to do before we could get to that place. Looking back know, I feel so lucky that I was able to have the time I did with my mom. We became such close friends.

Regrets…It is so hard in life to not have regrets. My biggest regret is not spending the absolute most time I could with my mom when she was sick. I made decisions which kept me away from times which could have been memories with mom. I now know that every memory I have is so precious…I regret so deeply not having more.

I regret not taking on as much responsibility with my mom’s care as I could have. I allowed my sister to take on the brunt of everything. I watched from the sidelines and let myself stay there.

What I don’t regret…each moment I spent with my mom when she was sick. We, laughed, played and talked. I learned so much about mom during this time; how absolutely strong she was, and how much she truly loved life and as she put it “didn’t want to get off yet.”

My mom taught me so much. I learned by listening and watching her. I am still on my journey to growing up however, now I have a whole lot of tips and tricks from mom that will help me on my journey.